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Confused
Smiling so sweetly, flirting so easily
I think heaven reached me, finally
Gorgeous brown eyes, sweet music comes out as laughter
I think I've caught a forever disease
heart flutters when I see him yet I don't see a sign
My dreams and hopes has him included but is this all just an illusion?

I'm finally acting feminine
I'm counting the hours,minutes,seconds till I get to see you
yet I go weeks without seeing you and you won't even text
Why do I even bother?

I am a person hypnotized by you
you hurt me but I don't let you see through
I am a person with hope