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OliveSpice89:

We are not alone and we all sometimes think we are. i hope to see i'm not. if yall are going through anything dms are open to anyone. hope yall enjoy Dear Anxiety, When they ask me what I am afraid of, I lie. I can never expose you, never tell the truth about you for fear of speaking you into existence. You are my punisher and my captor, my tormentor, my torturer. You are the little voice inside of my head telling me bad, bad things to do to myself, things I can't talk about for fear I'll forget who I am and turn into you. You tell me we are one and the same, but I am not you. I would never hurt a child the way you have hurt me. I would never tell a young girl she is unlovable, or fat, or ugly, or weird, or worthless. I would never tell her to carve ugly, terrible words into her body, to hold a blade to her skin, until she has bleeds so badly that the pain goes out like a light and her nerves are dead, just like she should be. I don't know why I listen to you when you force me to my knees in front of the toilet. searching in vain for a pencil sharpener I haven't already dismantled. When you tell me the closest to love I will ever come is sending naked pictures of myself to disgusting hunters of young prey. But I am not afraid of them. I am afraid of the shadows of my mind of the twisted and warped reality I am living in. And I scream, because it is all in my head. I scream because none of it is real. I scream because you are clawing your way up my throat, stealing my voice, gouging out my eyes, eating away at the lining of my stomach, turning my bones to jello and my hair to dust, destroying, destroying, destroying, destroying, destroying, destroying. ENOUGH. I have had ENOUGH. I am not you. I never was. I never will be. This is only a body, and you are only a feeling, and I will rise above. I am above this, above you, above my thoughts, above it all. And I will survive. And I will love me. And I will not let go. Sincerely, Olivia

XxXNessalulbaddieXxX:

oh my this is sad ;-;

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @xxxnessalulbaddiexxx oh my this is sad ;-; \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) lmao no,

XxXNessalulbaddieXxX:

to me yes ;-;

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @xxxnessalulbaddiexxx to me yes ;-; \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) This is my everyday, i grow to it.

Jay04:

That is also my everyday

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Jay04 That is also my everyday \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) wow, that's hard, wanna talk about it?

Jay04:

not really

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Jay04 not really \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) If you ever do. i'm here

Jay04:

I usually keep in hidden from everybody and deal with it myself

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Jay04 I usually keep in hidden from everybody and deal with it myself \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) That's what i did. and it broke me

ELiGiO:

i like it

Jay04:

There are some things I'd rather not tell anybody in public. I'll tell you in the dms if you want to know what I'm talking about

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @ELiGiO i like it \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Thank you

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Jay04 There are some things I'd rather not tell anybody in public. I'll tell you in the dms if you want to know what I'm talking about \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) yea ok, dm me

ELiGiO:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @ELiGiO i like it \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Thank you \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) you welcome

LKylie:

Awe nice

LKylie:

Can everyone look at my post?

LKylie:

Dang! No one's looking at my post.

yoboijarvis:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Can everyone look at my post? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) I see your post

yoboijarvis:

;0 its incredible one of the best poems I've ever seen

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis ;0 its incredible one of the best poems I've ever seen \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) thank you. i write a lot but never show so it's nice people like

yoboijarvis:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis ;0 its incredible one of the best poems I've ever seen \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) thank you. i write a lot but never show so it's nice people like \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Yeah you should show more

OliveSpice89:

i might

yoboijarvis:

okay

Ashely:

WOW ummm the one time i have nothing to say is now! Great work.. Lemme just pop in your dms bc i love this and it was felt!!!! i just hella exposed myself but oh well

LKylie:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Can everyone look at my post? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) I see your post \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Then why didn't you said anything?

hi123654789:

OMG. this isnt the first time i've seen your work. and you have a huge talent

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Ashely WOW ummm the one time i have nothing to say is now! Great work.. Lemme just pop in your dms bc i love this and it was felt!!!! i just hella exposed myself but oh well \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Dms are open

Ashely:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Ashely WOW ummm the one time i have nothing to say is now! Great work.. Lemme just pop in your dms bc i love this and it was felt!!!! i just hella exposed myself but oh well \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Dms are open \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) bettttttttttttttttttttttt

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Can everyone look at my post? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) I see your post \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Then why didn't you said anything? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) You're being kinda rude

Ashely:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Can everyone look at my post? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) I see your post \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Then why didn't you said anything? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) You're being kinda rude \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) faxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Ashely \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Can everyone look at my post? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) I see your post \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Then why didn't you said anything? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) You're being kinda rude \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) faxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) she does this a lot and it's rude. it's how you get people to look

Ashely:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Ashely \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Can everyone look at my post? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) I see your post \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Then why didn't you said anything? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) You're being kinda rude \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) faxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) she does this a lot and it's rude. it's how you get people to look \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) ikr

LKylie:

Wdym?? Who's rude? Me?

LKylie:

Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer

LKylie:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Where was I not being nice? Like in dms or chat or ur post?

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Where was I not being nice? Like in dms or chat or ur post? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) kinda all.. plz calm down i didnt mean to upset u

LKylie:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Where was I not being nice? Like in dms or chat or ur post? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) kinda all.. plz calm down i didnt mean to upset u \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) How was I not being nice in dms? And in subject chat I was talking about fasting and I was being nice And in ur post I said "Awe nice" How was that rude?

OliveSpice89:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Where was I not being nice? Like in dms or chat or ur post? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) kinda all.. plz calm down i didnt mean to upset u \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) How was I not being nice in dms? And in subject chat I was talking about fasting and I was being nice And in ur post I said "Awe nice" How was that rude? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) you're only pointing out the little you said nicely.

LKylie:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Where was I not being nice? Like in dms or chat or ur post? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) kinda all.. plz calm down i didnt mean to upset u \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) How was I not being nice in dms? And in subject chat I was talking about fasting and I was being nice And in ur post I said "Awe nice" How was that rude? \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) you're only pointing out the little you said nicely. \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) Now u want me to send u a paragraph about ur post then srry I'm too lazy for it and show me where I was not being nice? If I'm only pointing out the nice things

LKylie:

Now olive will think about what do I do now? Bcs she was lying

LKylie:

🤥

OliveSpice89:

thats not what i said. im talking bout that one guy

LKylie:

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89 thats not what i said. im talking bout that one guy \(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\) I didnt get u

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