Question

We are not alone and we all sometimes think we are. i hope to see i'm not. if yall are going through anything dms are open to anyone. hope yall enjoy

Dear Anxiety,

When they ask me what I am afraid of,
I lie.
I can never expose you,
never tell the truth about you
for fear of speaking you into existence.
You are my punisher and my captor,
my tormentor, my torturer.
You are the little voice inside of my head
telling me bad, bad things to do to myself,
things I can't talk about
for fear I'll forget who I am and turn into you.
You tell me we are one and the same, but I am not you.
I would never hurt a child the way you have hurt me.
I would never tell a young girl she is unlovable,
or fat,
or ugly,
or weird,
or worthless.
I would never tell her to carve ugly, terrible words into her body,
to hold a blade to her skin,
until she has bleeds so badly that the pain goes out like a light
and her nerves are dead,
just like she should be.
I don't know why I listen to you
when you force me to my knees in front of the toilet.
searching in vain for a pencil sharpener I haven't already dismantled.
When you tell me the closest to love
I will ever come is sending naked pictures of myself
to disgusting hunters of young prey.
But I am not afraid of them.
I am afraid of the shadows of my mind
of the twisted and warped reality I am living in.
And I scream, because it is all in my head.
I scream because none of it is real.
I scream because you are clawing your way up my throat,
stealing my voice, gouging out my eyes, eating away at the lining of my stomach,
turning my bones to jello and my hair to dust,
destroying, destroying, destroying, destroying, destroying, destroying.
ENOUGH.
I have had ENOUGH. I am not you.
I never was.
I never will be.
This is only a body, and you are only a feeling, and I will rise above.
I am above this, above you, above my thoughts, above it all.
And I will survive.
And I will love me.
And I will not let go.
Sincerely,
Olivia

Answer 1

oh my this is sad ;-;

Answer 2

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @xxxnessalulbaddiexxx
oh my this is sad ;-;
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lmao no,

Answer 3

to me yes ;-;

Answer 4

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @xxxnessalulbaddiexxx
to me yes ;-;
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This is my everyday, i grow to it.

Answer 5

That is also my everyday

Answer 6

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Jay04
That is also my everyday
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wow, that's hard, wanna talk about it?

Answer 7

not really

Answer 8

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Jay04
not really
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If you ever do. i'm here

Answer 9

I usually keep in hidden from everybody and deal with it myself

Answer 10

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Jay04
I usually keep in hidden from everybody and deal with it myself
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That's what i did. and it broke me

Answer 11

i like it

Answer 12

There are some things I'd rather not tell anybody in public. I'll tell you in the dms if you want to know what I'm talking about

Answer 13

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @ELiGiO
i like it
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Thank you

Answer 14

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Jay04
There are some things I'd rather not tell anybody in public. I'll tell you in the dms if you want to know what I'm talking about
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yea ok, dm me

Answer 15

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @ELiGiO
i like it
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Thank you
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you welcome

Answer 16

Awe nice

Answer 17

Can everyone look at my post?

Answer 18

Dang! No one's looking at my post.

Answer 19

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Can everyone look at my post?
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I see your post

Answer 20

;0 its incredible one of the best poems I've ever seen

Answer 21

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis
;0 its incredible one of the best poems I've ever seen
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thank you. i write a lot but never show so it's nice people like

Answer 22

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis
;0 its incredible one of the best poems I've ever seen
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thank you. i write a lot but never show so it's nice people like
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Yeah you should show more

Answer 23

i might

Answer 24

okay

Answer 25

WOW ummm the one time i have nothing to say is now! Great work.. Lemme just pop in your dms bc i love this and it was felt!!!! i just hella exposed myself but oh well

Answer 26

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Can everyone look at my post?
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I see your post
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Then why didn't you said anything?

Answer 27

OMG. this isnt the first time i've seen your work. and you have a huge talent

Answer 28

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Ashely
WOW ummm the one time i have nothing to say is now! Great work.. Lemme just pop in your dms bc i love this and it was felt!!!! i just hella exposed myself but oh well
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Dms are open

Answer 29

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Ashely
WOW ummm the one time i have nothing to say is now! Great work.. Lemme just pop in your dms bc i love this and it was felt!!!! i just hella exposed myself but oh well
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Dms are open
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bettttttttttttttttttttttt

Answer 30

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Can everyone look at my post?
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I see your post
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Then why didn't you said anything?
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You're being kinda rude

Answer 31

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Can everyone look at my post?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
I see your post
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Then why didn't you said anything?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
You're being kinda rude
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
faxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Answer 32

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Ashely
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Can everyone look at my post?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
I see your post
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Then why didn't you said anything?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
You're being kinda rude
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
faxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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she does this a lot and it's rude. it's how you get people to look

Answer 33

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @Ashely
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @yoboijarvis
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Can everyone look at my post?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
I see your post
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Then why didn't you said anything?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
You're being kinda rude
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
faxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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she does this a lot and it's rude. it's how you get people to look
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
ikr

Answer 34

Wdym?? Who's rude? Me?

Answer 35

Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight

Answer 36

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight
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chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer

Answer 37

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Where was I not being nice? Like in dms or chat or ur post?

Answer 38

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Where was I not being nice? Like in dms or chat or ur post?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
kinda all.. plz calm down i didnt mean to upset u

Answer 39

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Where was I not being nice? Like in dms or chat or ur post?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
kinda all.. plz calm down i didnt mean to upset u
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
How was I not being nice in dms?
And in subject chat I was talking about fasting and I was being nice
And in ur post I said "Awe nice" How was that rude?

Answer 40

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Where was I not being nice? Like in dms or chat or ur post?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
kinda all.. plz calm down i didnt mean to upset u
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
How was I not being nice in dms?
And in subject chat I was talking about fasting and I was being nice
And in ur post I said "Awe nice" How was that rude?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
you're only pointing out the little you said nicely.

Answer 41

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @LKylie
Hello olive? Tell me first get some balls to fight
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
chill, fight? you fr should calm down. you were not being nice. and we said that. there shoudlnt be a fight. just learn to be a little nicer
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Where was I not being nice? Like in dms or chat or ur post?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
kinda all.. plz calm down i didnt mean to upset u
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
How was I not being nice in dms?
And in subject chat I was talking about fasting and I was being nice
And in ur post I said "Awe nice" How was that rude?
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
you're only pointing out the little you said nicely.
\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{End of Quote}}\)
Now u want me to send u a paragraph about ur post then srry I'm too lazy for it and show me where I was not being nice? If I'm only pointing out the nice things

Answer 42

Now olive will think about what do I do now? Bcs she was lying

Answer 43

🤥

Answer 44

thats not what i said. im talking bout that one guy

Answer 45

\(\color{#0cbb34}{\text{Originally Posted by}}\) @OliveSpice89
thats not what i said. im talking bout that one guy
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I didnt get u