The Indecisions That Come With Being Me

There’s times when I don’t know how I want to be,
Careless or caring.
Most days, I sit there and ponder,
If going back was a fair place to be.

Careless me is a bad influence,
Caring me is a joy to be.

Careless me doesn’t care,
Caring me loves very deeply.

The attitude I carry around,
Leaves others with a deep frown.
Sometimes I can’t control the feelings,
I don’t know if it helps with the healings.

My close friends say don’t go back,
But how do I do that when everything goes black.

The rebel ally or the silly ally ?
Is what I question myself everyday.

Question

The Indecisions That Come With Being Me

There’s times when I don’t know how I want to be,
Careless or caring.
Most days, I sit there and ponder,
If going back was a fair place to be.

Careless me is a bad influence,
Caring me is a joy to be.

Careless me doesn’t care, 
Caring me loves very deeply.

The attitude I carry around,
Leaves others with a deep frown.
Sometimes I can’t control the feelings,
I don’t know if it helps with the healings.

My close friends say don’t go back, 
But how do I do that when everything goes black.

The rebel ally or the silly ally ?
Is what I question myself everyday.

Limitless2 · Answer

I was the first person to know abt this btw

kristen000021 · Answer

awww. This is deep. I think ur the silly and caring n straight forward ally. This is good tho bbg

theydontknowally · Answer

@kristen000021 wrote:

awww. This is deep. I think ur the silly and caring n straight forward ally. This is good tho bbg

yeah ma thoughts invaded sm earlier, tyyyy bbg 🩵

kristen000021 · Answer

@theydontknowally wrote:

@kristen000021 wrote:

awww. This is deep. I think ur the silly and caring n straight forward ally. This is good tho bbg

yeah ma thoughts invaded sm earlier, tyyyy bbg 🩵

well don't down urself. Ur literally such an amazing person. Ik how it feels I always down myself but you shouldn't think that way at all

theydontknowally · Answer

@kristen000021 wrote:

@theydontknowally wrote:

@kristen000021 wrote:

awww. This is deep. I think ur the silly and caring n straight forward ally. This is good tho bbg

yeah ma thoughts invaded sm earlier, tyyyy bbg 🩵

well don't down urself. Ur literally such an amazing person. Ik how it feels I always down myself but you shouldn't think that way at all

trust I try not too and I even push them away but they always come back full power the next time. but I'm getting better at not letting them in.

kristen000021 · Answer

@theydontknowally wrote:

@kristen000021 wrote:

@theydontknowally wrote:

@kristen000021 wrote:

awww. This is deep. I think ur the silly and caring n straight forward ally. This is good tho bbg

yeah ma thoughts invaded sm earlier, tyyyy bbg 🩵

well don't down urself. Ur literally such an amazing person. Ik how it feels I always down myself but you shouldn't think that way at all

trust I try not too and I even push them away but they always come back full power the next time. but I'm getting better at not letting them in.

well if u ever need to talk I am here for u. Always been since we met

theydontknowally · Answer

@kristen000021 wrote:

@theydontknowally wrote:

@kristen000021 wrote:

@theydontknowally wrote:

@kristen000021 wrote:

awww. This is deep. I think ur the silly and caring n straight forward ally. This is good tho bbg

yeah ma thoughts invaded sm earlier, tyyyy bbg 🩵

well don't down urself. Ur literally such an amazing person. Ik how it feels I always down myself but you shouldn't think that way at all

trust I try not too and I even push them away but they always come back full power the next time. but I'm getting better at not letting them in.

well if u ever need to talk I am here for u. Always been since we met

yeah most definitely, same wit me for youu

CrumbCrumbington · Answer

what was with all this poem when you just choose to be mean day in and day out

CrumbCrumbington · Answer

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

what was with all this poem when you just choose to be mean day in and day out

out of the entire year I've known you, you've never shown any compassion or human sympathy whatsoever

theydontknowally · Answer

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

what was with all this poem when you just choose to be mean day in and day out

out of the entire year I've known you, you've never shown any compassion or human sympathy whatsoever

I don't like you that may b why. others know me more than you do.

CrumbCrumbington · Answer

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

what was with all this poem when you just choose to be mean day in and day out

out of the entire year I've known you, you've never shown any compassion or human sympathy whatsoever

and you indeed do have control over these actions, you just choose to be a pushover and it pains me to see

theydontknowally · Answer

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

what was with all this poem when you just choose to be mean day in and day out

out of the entire year I've known you, you've never shown any compassion or human sympathy whatsoever

and you indeed do have control over these actions, you just choose to be a pushover and it pains me to see

you do not know what I go through and youn know ma past.

CrumbCrumbington · Answer

@theydontknowally wrote:

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

what was with all this poem when you just choose to be mean day in and day out

out of the entire year I've known you, you've never shown any compassion or human sympathy whatsoever

and you indeed do have control over these actions, you just choose to be a pushover and it pains me to see

you do not know what I go through and youn know ma past.

Stop looking to the past and blaming it, grow as a person, like holy dude

theydontknowally · Answer

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

@theydontknowally wrote:

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

what was with all this poem when you just choose to be mean day in and day out

out of the entire year I've known you, you've never shown any compassion or human sympathy whatsoever

and you indeed do have control over these actions, you just choose to be a pushover and it pains me to see

you do not know what I go through and youn know ma past.

Stop looking to the past and blaming it, grow as a person, like holy dude

I do. 🙏

CrumbCrumbington · Answer

I hate people who excuse it on stupid stuff like "Oh my mom didn't buy me a power ranger when I was 5 so now I'm an alcoholic and I dropped out of college"

theydontknowally · Answer

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

I hate people who excuse it on stupid stuff like "Oh my mom didn't buy me a power ranger when I was 5 so now I'm an alcoholic and I dropped out of college"

I'm not petty like that.

CrumbCrumbington · Answer

You cant blame life for everything you gotta change ally

CrumbCrumbington · Answer

You sure do seem petty from every interaction we've had

theydontknowally · Answer

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

You cant blame life for everything you gotta change ally

its ma thoughts that invade crumb, that's all. other than that I really am a good person, there are multiple ppl who can vouch for me.

theydontknowally · Answer

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

You sure do seem petty from every interaction we've had

its sometimes bc of the things you do say crumb. I don't think you're a bad person, its jus some of the things you say. that's it.

CrumbCrumbington · Answer

@theydontknowally wrote:

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

You cant blame life for everything you gotta change ally

its ma thoughts that invade crumb, that's all. other than that I really am a good person, there are multiple ppl who can vouch for me.

They can vouch, but its all words to me. Im tired of being stepped on and tossed to the curb when I'm the sweetest person ever, all I ask is you treat me the same ally

theydontknowally · Answer

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

@theydontknowally wrote:

@crumbcrumbington wrote:

You cant blame life for everything you gotta change ally

its ma thoughts that invade crumb, that's all. other than that I really am a good person, there are multiple ppl who can vouch for me.

They can vouch, but its all words to me. Im tired of being stepped on and tossed to the curb when I'm the sweetest person ever, all I ask is you treat me the same ally

like I said crumb its jus the things you say. I've actually seen your nice and caring side when the stuff wit lux happened. but iguu.

SaltySuga · Answer

W

theydontknowmelly · Answer

good job mama !!