Question

Sometimes I want to put a pistol to my hand and let it go but I can't because my mother needs me but sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be born or have a good mother like I do some days I want to stay in bed but other days I'm just all gentlemen and nice but inside I be cold. People say it's my fault I wear my heart on my sleeve but I don't care about that because I've been hurt to many times I be hating to see other people happy sometimes and see people with there grandparents and father that sh!t be making me mad. I need help but I don't want help but I do want help I'm not ok but I'll be alright jelly rolls lyrics. I want to be happy again like that little kid I was when I was 4 and 5 but after that I started to be what I am today a mf that says I don't care about it but I'm hurting in the Inside but I don't show it I feel people I'm not an emotional person I just want to be happy.

I'm sorry for writing all this stuff but I need to get some stuff off my mind.
I hope everyone stays safe.

Answer 1

Ik nobody cares about me or what I say but I feel like if I get help nobody wouldn't care or listen to me so that's why I keep my mouth closed and don't say sh!t but I'll be alright ig

Answer 2

Yo i've felt the same way i don't really listen to jelly roll but i understand where you've felt fam

Answer 3

I dealt with physical abuse for 6 years i've been through quite a bit and there's been quite a few times where ive wanted to end it but i always think that life gets better

i live with my mom now and live is... better

never give up, 3 words that mean a whole lot to me

Answer 4

Appreciate it and damn I went through same sh!t also with abuse