Question

Being someone that others made you into is hard. You live to their expectations, never yours. You talk about things that only has interests in others, so you just play along as if you do. You act like them because who are you if you don't. people always ask what do you like, but its hard to answer because all you ever liked is what others have liked. you try to be yourself but you get ashamed because you don't know who you really are, you don't know what your capable of because all you have done is copy and follow the crowd because that was always your mentality, to follow. Following is easy but living your life as you isn't. if you try to be a leader, you get talked down because your not like others, instead your dumb, retarded, and stupid for even doing things that isn't following others.