Question

my heart just feels like shattering in so many pieces right now, i am crying because im so sick of the bs, who knew that it was all a game to the person i thought was supposed to be there and love me and mean it, for someone who i trusted for the past month, and for someone who faked everything, i will never ever learn to trust because of YOU, everything u said was a lie, i feel like i fell off a cliff, and im numb, and i feel so dumb for believing u could possibly be there for me, i was so blind, by the power and what i see, and now i regret it with all my heart, because its making my tears all come down, and this time around , i thought u would be there, i guess life isnt fare, and u never felt , u never knew, and i could only blame myself, for everything and anything, i guess when u think the sun is out for u, nothing but the rain comes down, im screaming so loud inside, wishing all this was ,a dream, and i wouldn;t want to die. im crying because i thought it was real, everything changed in just two minutes and one sentence, thats all it took for me to realize that i hate life, and i hate everything i thought was real, i was happy a second ago, now i feel like i hate everything.,AND EEVERYTHING...i hate it all, i just cant stop but let it all fall, and its tearing me in a matter of seconds. the scars that remain, all the blood and all the hate and the shame, will never go away, i do it because it is the only way i cope, ever since i was 13, i think its like 60 now, all seen but invisible thru the pain that stays the same, its the only way i know, and i never say because it was new @ the time, now it just feels like its all on repeat. it is. but its the only way i know, i tear on the keyboard right now because i know i wont forget, everything said and everything done was all a waste of space, thru now and time,

Answer 1

:( why dont u come tlk to me about stuff, we can tlk about this if u want yeah yeah ik its none of my business but i would be like tits on a bull if i sit here and ignore u come pm me ok :)

Answer 2

seiga message me wat happened if u want. :(

Answer 3

i just learned in the matter of two seconds, that i can't trust everyone or anyone, and u want me to tell u why im crying, why i feel numb and why i let this happen.

Answer 4

seiga im am a listener u can trust me cause you made me feel better.

Answer 5

yeah u definatly cant trust everyone u gotta choose ur friends wisely and im here to be a good friend :)

Answer 6

plus i dont know if ill break at any moment an fall.

Answer 7

im not frontin with u either im real, and im full of love so why not share it u know

Answer 8

i learned that people are so fake, that feelings aren't real , that tears make u want to scream, because it feels like its all a dream, EVERY SINGLE THING THAT WAS SAID TO ME, MEANT SO MUCH, NOW ITS ALL TAKEN AWAY, I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE BROKE DOWN MY WALL, THEN LIED TO ME, AND THOUGHT I WOULDNT FIND OUT, I FEEL LIKE IM GUNNA DIE, I FEEL LIKE I TRUST WITH MY HEART AND MIND, BUT EVERYTHING WAS A LIE, I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING WHY, BUT ITS JUST BECAUSE IM STUPID WITH ALL THIS FEELINGS, I FEEL NUMB AND ALONE, IDC WHAT U SAY, IT FEELS LIKE A PART OF ME HAS BEEN TAKEN AWAY, THE ONLY THING I HAVE TO SAY IS, IM BACK IN THE RAIN, BECAUSE THIS PERSON LEFT A STAIN, THAT NO MATTER WHAT, CANT ERASE.

Answer 9

come tlk to me im all ears ill pm u ok?

Answer 10

tht happened 2 me. i fell so hard i grew a shell no body cared about me. i was thinin of suicide last year, seiga dont do it ur not alone. i believe i know who u takin bout. please im ur friend an i understand.

Answer 11

I WANT TO NOT CRY, BUT I CANT HELP EVERY SINGLE TEAR THATS FALLING DOWN MY FACE BECAUSE I HONESTLY DONT WANT TO SAY ANYMORE, I DONT WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE, IM SO SICK OF IT ALL, U WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND. BEHIND IT ALL IS ME SCREAMING I WANT OUT, AND I DO. ITS JUST NEVER ENOUGH, I WILL KEEP THINKING ABOUT IT, THIS IS JUST FEELING LIKE SOMEONE RIPPED MY HEART OUT, HAD U EVER FELT HALF THIS STUFF?YES U DID, BUT IT WILL NEVER COMPARE TO WHAT IV BEEN THRU, HELL AND BACK, BUT IT JUST FEELS LIKE EVERY SINGLE THING IS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH, WATEVER, IM GOING, I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT ANYMORE,.

Answer 12

U KNOW WAT NO ONE GAVE A DAMM ABOUT ME, I WAS ON MY OWN SINCE I WAS 7, AN WITH THOUGHTS THAT I THINK, I THOUGHT I SHOULD DIE> SEIGA DONT DO IT. UNDERSTAND NO ONE IS HERE FOR ME THTS WHY IM STILL LOOKING.

Answer 13

This too shall pass -_-

Answer 14

time will heal u mi amor, just let time be on ur side

Answer 15

U SAY WHY I HAVE THESE SCARS, THEY REMAIN, BUT THE PAIN INSIDE WILL NEVER CHANGE, I RACE AGAINST TIME, BUT THIS LINE IS ON THE OUTSIDE,. THE TEARS FALLING DOWN MY FACE RIGHT NOW, ARE MAKING ME WANT TO FEEL NUMB, EVEN IF U ACT LIKE UR NOT ONE OF THEM, ALL I CAN SAY IS , I WANT TO GO AWAY, ALL FAR, NOT NEAR U, BECAUSE U TEARED ME APART, I TOOK SO MUCH DAMN RISKS FOR THIS, AND ALL I GET IS A SCAR AND A STAINED HEART, THE SCARS THAT WILL REMAIN, ALL STAY THE SAME, BUT THE BITTERNESS AND THE CHANGE WILL NEVER GO AWAY. ALL THE HATE AND THE SHAME , ALL THE BROKEN HEARTS IN ONE, ARE ALL THE SAME, I WANT TO LEAVE AND BE FREE, BUT I FEEL AS IF U WENT THRU MY HEART AND MISSED ME, U NEVER REALIZE THAT BEHIND MY SMILE, I SCREAM, BEHIND IT ALL, I SMILE, BUT IM JUST ANOTHER GOOD ACTOR, IN ONE OF UR GAMES, IT WAS ALL JUST ANOTHER PLAY, IM SO SICK OF IT ALL, I REALIZED IT ALL AFTER I FALL.

Answer 16

NO...NO...AND NOT ANYTHING WILL EVER PASS, BECAUSE ONCE I THINK OR SEE SOMETHING , U WONT UNDERSTAND, I THINK ABOUT IT AND REMEMBER FOREVER, IM JUST THAT TYPE A PERSON, I AM SO SICK OF IT, WHY DO PEOPLE ACT LIKE HEARTS ARE MEANT TO BE PLAYED., BECAUSE NOW IM BITTER AND HATE,

Answer 17

PLEASE DONT TELL ME U UNDERSTAND, BECAUSE IF U DID, I SWEAR TO GOD, U WOULD CRY OF EVERYTHING AT THE END WHEN AND IF I EVER TOLD.

Answer 18

YOU WILL FIND SOMEONE WAY BETER THAN HIM, UNDERSTAND? SEIGA U HAVE SOOOO MUCH 2 LIVE FOR. DONT THROW IT AWAY. ON MY OWN SO LONG AND ALL I WANT IS SOMEONE TO KNOW ME. SEIGA DONT. I WOULD CRY WITH U, I WENT THUGH A LIVING HELL FOR EIGHT YEARS, SEIGA TELL ME.

Answer 19

I WENT THRU A LIVING HELL FOR 16 , SO DON'T TELL ME THAT BS, ITS NOT ABOUT ANYONE, IM ALONE NOW, AND I OFFICIALLY UNDERSTAND, THAT IM DONE FEELING", IM NUMB AND NOW THRU FOREVER.

Answer 20

Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh I'm falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see the girl I am.... isn't me."

Answer 21

SEIGA I WONT UNDERSTAND IF U DONT TELL ME, YOU DONT HAVE TO, FUNNY I WRTTEN SOMETHING LIKE THAT BEFORE.

Answer 22

inside i scream so loud.

yet i am never heard.

inside i am falling down.

yet no one can see it.

for some it is easy to read

the signs i am giving out.

my poems send messages.

they are written for a reason.

they scream and shout.

they cry and pound.

but nothing changes

i am still screaming

i am still falling down.

but no one hears me and

no one catches me.

everything is the same

time means nothing.

now i am sobbing inside.

my tears fall down

silently to the floor.

on the outside i am cool

i am collected.in the inside

i am pounding and kicking

i am sobbing and crying out for help.

i am falling into darkness and

just like before i am left to fall.

i am screaming inside and

no one heres me

my poems hold messages

my eyes have no emotion.

everything is written down for a reason

yet no one understands.

no one sees i am dying inside.

nothing is changed.

nobody is there.

when i die its your fault.

because you had a chance

a chance to save me.

yet you ignored my screams

and went off with some one else.

because on the inside i scream so loud.

and no one hears me

for some it is easy to read.

the signs that i am giving out.

yet people ignore them and leave me be.

i have been hiding for so long.

behind fake smiles

you can see it in my eyes

they are harder than steel

no longer showing emotions.

i am screaming so loud

yet i don't show it

so i hide and walk away.

leaving everything behind.

i am screaming so loud

can you hear me?

or do i need to scream louder?

well sorry but my lungs are gone.

I've blown it. life isn't an option.

no...not anymore.too long holed up.

too long not talking. too long hiding

behind false smiles.

I've learned to be quiet.

I've walked away.

i no longer scream and shout.

because i know it doesn't' work anymore.

IT DOESN'T flutterING WORK ANYMORE.

so i walk away.

i continue to hide

behind fake smiles.

i watch as some people try to figure me out.

but my eyes show no emotion.

and my smiles mean nothing.

i have quit screaming .

i will never be found.

my voice has given out.

4 days to say good bye.

3 word that can change that.

2 hours to find myself.

1 person that saves my life.

I've been hoping they save me.

but my screams have been silenced.

each time i want to jump

they cross my mind and i stop.

i have given up on hope and life.

i want to jump to end the pain and misery.

my screams aren't heard anymore,

and they have someone else so

i wonder what is keeping me

on the ledge inches from death.

i have closed all the doors into my mind

and locked all the windows into my heart.

only one person holds the key.

yet they don't know it

so why cant i jump why cant i let go?

I've given up screaming

I've given up on life

so what is holding me on the ledge.

the messages in my poems aren't heard

and neither are my screams.

dreams have become nightmares

and my eyes have become stones.

my smiles are false

and my mind is blank.

i have quit screaming.

because it does no good

nobody hears me anyways.

my messages in my poems don't get through.

I've quit crying and screaming

my rage has taken over

so now i sit on the ledge

wondering why i cant jump.

just end the pain and hurt already.

but i cant jump and i don't know why.

not that it matters. cause no one bothers

to listen to me any ways

so i sit on the ledge.

inches from death.

unable to jump.

unable to fall.

so i put on a fake smile.

and walk one for a few more days.

waiting for that one thing

that will push me over the edge.

to make me jump.

because I've given up and

my voice has given out

so with my last breath

i say my farewells.

i take one step and jump

to my death. people ask why

and i say why not

i no longer scream, and

i no longer shout

because there is no one out there

that will hear me out.

torn in two

Answer 23

i dont need anyones pity,its my issues, not urs, so just leave it like that

Answer 24

do u really want me to leave u alone? do u really wanna screw up urself because of some low life guy? its hard to find love ik but u gotta be careful who u give ur heart to, u ordered wrong thats all

Answer 25

the only way u will win this battle is if u get over this and be happy

Answer 26

this girl you see standing before you tall and smiling, ur wrong, im broken, been so for a long time. i cried so many tears, and wonder why im here? to be broken over and over, as well as you i show hardly ant emotion, glide right by, waiting for the time to die, one last chance for someone to fix or break. the last straw ill die maybe today, but when doesnt matter ill still be gone im far too lost. to be fix.

Answer 27

under water though pills, shotgun to the head. ive had pain, been tormented by thoughts whispering in my ear, when and how doesnt matter ill die soon. but of heartbreak? maybe ill feel it, mayb no, ive tried to open but instead stabbed through the heart.

Answer 28

logging off..i had enough pain to last me 6 lifes., sick of it all, no matter what, i will never understand, its like a song replaying the lines, the seconds, and the days down for me, im gunna explode, but idc, i dont need anyone to tell me when, im going to live with it for
NOW, because im DONE/ with all the BS

Answer 29

I love u Seiga :) matter a fact im bout to play some Neyo right about now ^_^ which song do u wanna listen to with me :)

Answer 30

the silence is killing me, it has for a while, just thinking that he could fix, then ripped me to shreds, im already dead. putting a bullet straight through my head.