Question

I use to be that girl
That girl who thought she wasn't noticed
That girl who thought there was no hope
That girl that hasn't found true love
That girl that didn't like herself
That girl that counted on enemies instead of friends because she couldn't trust them
But now she is new
Now she has friends who she can count on
Now she is free
Now she can't wait for the future
She got a second chance, and will make the best of it, with nothing stopping her

@Destinycholie @arris04 @Librarian @YouSir @mjosedavid @mathgeek27 @Chrissylover560212 @BugzytheGreat @One098

Answer 1

Exactly what I'm going through! It's amazing!

Answer 2

thanks, you know I'm always here for you,moe

Answer 3

that is beautiful.

Answer 4

thanks hope it cheers u up, :)

Answer 5

we are glad to have a friend like you

Answer 6

amazing crissy i guess i should tell you more of my past... amazing love you

Answer 7

I know you do, I love all of you

Answer 8

thanks destiny, ? lol

Answer 9

Exactly what I went through omg this made my day :) I can't wait to read more!!!!

Answer 10

this made me cry.

Answer 11

aww @YouSir

Answer 12

thanks @mathgeek27

Answer 13

Yeah, that's like me, except I don't have my second chance.

Answer 14

check hangouts

Answer 15

<3 Yeah dragon master

Answer 16

why can't you,its easy to turn around just have to be ready to change

Answer 17

But It's actually not that easy. I wish it was. You can't just change in the blink of an eye

Answer 18

nope,but you can start slowly

Answer 19

But it takes time. But I don't HAVE time.

Answer 20

lol I'm not patient either, but for us to have or are at this stage,we had time for that

Answer 21

But if your world has been like that for what seems like forever?

Answer 22

There is a way out, you just have to look for it, trust me, and try

Answer 23

Theres not always a way out.
\[Life Is Hard, Suicide is Easy\]

Answer 24

but taking the easy way out hurts the people that love you and care about you.. its hard you just have to fight through it and let people help you are at least try to help you

Answer 25

Nobody cares

Answer 26

wrong.. i care

Answer 27

But, how do I find said way out?

Answer 28

Wrong. You don't. Your only feeling sympathetic.
Sympathetic, take away the sym, pathetic.

Answer 29

But the stem sym means together. So basically when you feel sympathetic, you're pathetic together. You shouldn't call people pathetic.

Answer 30

no see i care about everyone until they make it where you just can't care about them anymore.. and its not sympathetic its real and if that is how you feel then there is not much i can do

Answer 31

i'm not caling people pathetic. I'm calling myself pathetic.

Answer 32

@RisaKitsune I don't have many friends, but I make the most out of my life. Even though it seems most of my friends hate me, I mean, once I was absent from school, and one of my best friends didn't even notice I was gone, there's still something in life to hold onto. I try to find the one or two things in life worth holding onto. Plus, suicide is sickening.

Answer 33

But it seems better than.. this..

Answer 34

But what's "this..."

Answer 35

this sh*tty excuse that they call life
(excuse my language)

Answer 36

Well, what are the things in your life that are at least half good?

Answer 37

......
I have an iPad..

Answer 38

Well, anything else?

Answer 39

dragon

Answer 40

Yeah?

Answer 41

urm.. a laptop.. and.. a house.. and.. a razor blade..
sorry leme try again
a bed.. a room.. a brotherr. who sucks. lets not include him. and beer. :)

Answer 42

What are the good things in life you can make out of those things (not including the razor blade)?

Answer 43

Use this.. do schoolwork.. listen to music.. sleep.. get drunk..

Answer 44

And not the beer either.

Answer 45

You should have said that before..

Answer 46

I forgot to mention it. XP

Answer 47

you still have friends who love you. it does not matter how many you have. all that matters is that someone thinks about you. A friend who cares for you. that is all you need. do not commit suicide and do not cut just because someone does not say they think about you. I had the same problems until i found out this. some people do not have anything and are raped and or killed and no one notices because no one cares. you have people. they are just too nervous to confront you.

Answer 48

this it to @RisaKitsune @dragonmaster917 @Crissy15 and @Destinycholie

Answer 49

I mean seriously. My life sucks too. I have, like, no real friends. One of my friends goes against everything I say, even if it's a good thing, another says that I suck, and so on. But, still. There are the good things in life to hold onto.

Answer 50

I've been sexually touched in 6th grade.. u think anyone gives a f*kig s*it?

Answer 51

you don't need a lot of friends to help you out, nd that should have been reported

Answer 52

I mean find tru friends, i may have been the talk at my scool nd every1 looked up 2 me, but actually i always felt down in the dumps

Answer 53

see crissy this is why i drink....

Answer 54

@RisaKitsune you can count on me, u 2 destiny uk that, im capable of doing anything,watch it, just going into stuff like drinking and doing drugs,hope no1 does, can't solve your problems

Answer 55

Yeah, I'm only in 7th grade, as you'll see from my profile.

Answer 56

I'm a grade behind but thats because i took a year off scool to find myself,see ppl there is time

Answer 57

Yeah, while on the other hand, I'm in my age-grade, but doing work 0-2 grades ahead.

Answer 58

I've only drinken once
okay twice counting now

Answer 59

I LOVE ALL OF YOU. IT DOES NOT MATTER WHO YOU ARE. YOU HAVE FRIENDS

Answer 60

lucky,i need to get my memory back

Answer 61

it kills the pain crissy

Answer 62

yup but once the drunkness is over,pains back

Answer 63

Ima talk to the governor in florida,c y u r drinking and if any laws can be made

Answer 64

thats when U drink MORE>

Answer 65

I have short term memory loss

Answer 66

HOW DID U KNOW I WAS IN FLORIDA?!
F*CKING STALKER

Answer 67

Yeah, those stalkers... but I stalk mai crush around school. i rest my case.

Answer 68

lol most of yall are in florida lol im in MD very near washington DC

Answer 69

DESTINY! SHE KNOWS WHERE I LIVE!

Answer 70

lmaooo this is turning fun

Answer 71

yeah, i don't live anywhere near florida. XP

Answer 72

lol crissy thats why you never stop drinking... and there is laws its you can't drink but that is not going to stop me

Answer 73

you should stop.

Answer 74

@yuba how do you bring yourself up from hell?

Answer 75

yeah, if you want to know what I'm like, just go on YouTube, find the channel CloissDylkiVicky, then watch a video that I'm in.

Answer 76

i am put you in rehab,or tlk 2 austin,ur parents,ariss,etc.

Answer 77

Why was I tagged?o.e

Answer 78

brb

Answer 79

@dragonmaster917 I'm everywhere, wajaja

Answer 80

...?

Answer 81

sigh.. all those people already know

Answer 82

ineed ur advice @Yuba

Answer 83

for them plzzz

Answer 84

@Destinycholie I'ma dectective,lol,studying laws,and am going to put drugs and beers and alchohal illegal nd extinct

Answer 85

sigh

Answer 86

Watch me, stop signing, your the one that got yourself that low in the first place, that thought should be extinct for all of you, you can't find happiness, you'll never be happy

Answer 87

back

Answer 88

thats not what my sigh was about... i just told arris about the.... thing. but sigh about that too

Answer 89

Guys, you're not alone in this, ok? There are others like you. 1/10 of adults suffer from depression. You are important, there's at least someone who cares about you. A friend. A family member. There's always someone to give you a hug when you need one. We are not on Earth to see through each other, but to see another through. Those people in your life are trying to see you through. Even though people may not really understand what you're going through, they can offer help, compassion. They won't leave you. People are sorry that you're in so much pain. People won't leave you. They want to help you. And when you live through this, there will be many people in your life. (Sorry for the long paragraph. XP)

Answer 90

tru bout that @dragonmaster917

Answer 91

@aerial_cheer

Answer 92

OMg I started crying my bf had to hold me. your amazing and dont let anyone else tell you differrently. THank you so much!

Answer 93

@dragonmaster917 that made my cry it was beautiful :')

Answer 94

.. I've dealt with so much ever since I was born.. my life was never good. then I got sent away after living with my mom and her abusive bf b4 I was 5. always unstable and moving, my mom did a lot of things she shouldn't have done that were illegal, including drugs and strangling someone after breaking down there door when she was a teenager..

I was always confused growing up.. but then I got sent to my dads and sexual abuse happened on my stepmoms side of the family, growing up I had relationship issues with my family with my stepbrother and stepmother, and I started to hate my mom. I was scared of turning to drugs at the age of 7 by the most. I set rules on how far I went and I controlled my every word and action. everyone knew me as the goody-goody because I was scared to dig myself a hole after watching my stepbrother losing control and throwing things and cursing.. I didn't want to be that.

in elementary school I was seriously planning on running away but I didn't because I knew it wasn't realistic and I thought of the after math. and I isolated myself all the time, you would never see me in the house unless you found me in my room curled up in a corner daydreaming to escape reality. I used creative things to do that, reading, writing, drawing etc.

but I grew up more and in 5th grade I was in middle school. I got bullied a lot, I ended up getting detention and teachers dragged me (literally) out of classes oblivious about the other students mocking me and saying hurtful things to get others to point and laugh while I was curled in a ball against a wall crying feeling more comfort in that position. I moved to other schools and things got worse, I hated everyone, I screamed my lungs out at someone in school at lunch b4 because I bottled everything up.

I tried to get help, I reached out my hand desperate for help.. but everyone always begged to differ about who they thought I was. they thought I was happy and in this freaking wonderland world where everything was perfect and got me 2 second guess myself.. I though I was a wannabe and wanted attention, I was confused..

in about Jan. to Feb. this year I got overwhelmed and I ended up cutting and that was sadly the best thing that had happened in my life, I smiled and felt so much relief I cried and kinda laughed and I slept well for the first time in forever..
But I didn't really know why I did it.. now I know it was to show how hurt I was, on the second day I had about 30 cut on one wrist and I didn't hide it.. and my stepmom saw my scars.. she talked to me as if I was five... and they didn't do anything, I overheard her talking to my dad and he didn't seem upset he was goofing off saying "oh yeah" :P
and I cried, I almost cried in front of her screaming on the inside to just let her know I wasn't alright..

I was visting my mom and she was on my case, always bringing things up and knew something was wrong..
so I opened up to her and now I live with her again.. she was working on fixing herself up this whole time to get me back, but she never knew it would be because of this.
I then put everything out on her.. I let go and fell into my hole I made, I couldn't hold onto anything and I ended up in the hospital, I actually ended up cursing her out, from the girl that refused to cuss in front of anyone because it was part of my disguise.. my outfit I made from a young age.. I threw things and freaked..
but I am determined to get myself together again.
I stopped instantly.
You can choose your path, but you have to be willing, you have to find your hope and reasons why you wont go down the wrong path, and my rreason is because of my best friend Thomas. I made a promise and I can literally see in my mind of how hurt everyone would be if I do something stupid, and I cant afford that..
I shut all that out and made it not a choice.
I didn't get all religious or anything..
but im finding my way, and I don't get what I use to get out of cutting, because I have no reason to do it anymore.
I get to start over by living with my mom.
but its still hard.
She got her son back, he is ten and its overwhelming..
He tried to run away, we called the police on him because he has no control, he is ten
..
and im scared for my stepbrother because he thinks he is "emo"
and I thought I was and ppl begged to differ..
and I hope he is wrong but.. idk
we are like best friends and love each other, compared to hating him..
a lot changed
But I hope you hold on.
Think.. if I was that mature since I was 5.. then gave up but changed my perspective..
You have to have a willingly opened mind about what you are doing and where it will get you.
From cutting to not cutting for awhile but cutted again once I saw how horrible it was, I literally was about to throw up I was so scared. I cried and I couldn't do it. I ended up telling my mom afterwards after about 10 to 20 minutes b4 school.
That feeling of depression is horrible the last time I felt that way I wanted to end that feeling it was strong and overwhelming that I wanted to just die and not deal with it.

Answer 95

And Im sorry that that turned into a freaking book xD imagine.. that wasn't even my whole entire life event that I dealt with...