Question

you still have friends who love you. it does not matter how many you have. all that matters is that someone thinks about you. A friend who cares for you. that is all you need. do not commit suicide and do not cut just because someone does not say they think about you. I had the same problems until i found out this. some people do not have anything and are raped and or killed and no one notices because no one cares. you have people. they are just too nervous to confront you.
to @Shadowgirl15 @Lily7 @HelpBlahBlahBlah @HaileyD @happyyanee4 @Destinycholie @mansaa @marylou004 @dejmccray @aerial_cheer @alesia/bailey @Alina123 @sammie2017 @missbrightside15
You are all my besties.

Answer 1

.. I've dealt with so much ever since I was born.. my life was never good. then I got sent away after living with my mom and her abusive bf b4 I was 5. always unstable and moving, my mom did a lot of things she shouldn't have done that were illegal, including drugs and strangling someone after breaking down there door when she was a teenager..

I was always confused growing up.. but then I got sent to my dads and sexual abuse happened on my stepmoms side of the family, growing up I had relationship issues with my family with my stepbrother and stepmother, and I started to hate my mom. I was scared of turning to drugs at the age of 7 by the most. I set rules on how far I went and I controlled my every word and action. everyone knew me as the goody-goody because I was scared to dig myself a hole after watching my stepbrother losing control and throwing things and cursing.. I didn't want to be that.

in elementary school I was seriously planning on running away but I didn't because I knew it wasn't realistic and I thought of the after math. and I isolated myself all the time, you would never see me in the house unless you found me in my room curled up in a corner daydreaming to escape reality. I used creative things to do that, reading, writing, drawing etc.

but I grew up more and in 5th grade I was in middle school. I got bullied a lot, I ended up getting detention and teachers dragged me (literally) out of classes oblivious about the other students mocking me and saying hurtful things to get others to point and laugh while I was curled in a ball against a wall crying feeling more comfort in that position. I moved to other schools and things got worse, I hated everyone, I screamed my lungs out at someone in school at lunch b4 because I bottled everything up.

I tried to get help, I reached out my hand desperate for help.. but everyone always begged to differ about who they thought I was. they thought I was happy and in this freaking wonderland world where everything was perfect and got me 2 second guess myself.. I though I was a wannabe and wanted attention, I was confused..

in about Jan. to Feb. this year I got overwhelmed and I ended up cutting and that was sadly the best thing that had happened in my life, I smiled and felt so much relief I cried and kinda laughed and I slept well for the first time in forever..
But I didn't really know why I did it.. now I know it was to show how hurt I was, on the second day I had about 30 cut on one wrist and I didn't hide it.. and my stepmom saw my scars.. she talked to me as if I was five... and they didn't do anything, I overheard her talking to my dad and he didn't seem upset he was goofing off saying "oh yeah" :P
and I cried, I almost cried in front of her screaming on the inside to just let her know I wasn't alright..

I was visting my mom and she was on my case, always bringing things up and knew something was wrong..
so I opened up to her and now I live with her again.. she was working on fixing herself up this whole time to get me back, but she never knew it would be because of this.
I then put everything out on her.. I let go and fell into my hole I made, I couldn't hold onto anything and I ended up in the hospital, I actually ended up cursing her out, from the girl that refused to cuss in front of anyone because it was part of my disguise.. my outfit I made from a young age.. I threw things and freaked..
but I am determined to get myself together again.
I stopped instantly.
You can choose your path, but you have to be willing, you have to find your hope and reasons why you wont go down the wrong path, and my rreason is because of my best friend Thomas. I made a promise and I can literally see in my mind of how hurt everyone would be if I do something stupid, and I cant afford that..
I shut all that out and made it not a choice.
I didn't get all religious or anything..
but im finding my way, and I don't get what I use to get out of cutting, because I have no reason to do it anymore.
I get to start over by living with my mom.
but its still hard.
She got her son back, he is ten and its overwhelming..
He tried to run away, we called the police on him because he has no control, he is ten
..
and im scared for my stepbrother because he thinks he is "emo"
and I thought I was and ppl begged to differ..
and I hope he is wrong but.. idk
we are like best friends and love each other, compared to hating him..
a lot changed
But I hope you hold on.
Think.. if I was that mature since I was 5.. then gave up but changed my perspective..
You have to have a willingly opened mind about what you are doing and where it will get you.
From cutting to not cutting for awhile but cutted again once I saw how horrible it was, I literally was about to throw up I was so scared. I cried and I couldn't do it. I ended up telling my mom afterwards after about 10 to 20 minutes b4 school.
That feeling of depression is horrible the last time I felt that way I wanted to end that feeling it was strong and overwhelming that I wanted to just die and not deal with it.

From Anonymous.

Answer 2

wow, I cant even put into words how I feel after I read that. Nobody should have to go through what you did. I too had a hard life, I was an accident my mom got pregnant at 14 with me and she soon got scared and left me with my dad who was on drugs and aggresive I never saw my mom until they hooked up again and got pregnant woth my brother she left him with my dad as well and we lived with him. I always had to take care of everyone in the house there were me , jason(my brother) kianna dads gf daughter and hailey dads gf daughter. Than my mom and dad hooked up again and had my little sister my dad didnt think it was his kid and one day I wasnt watching her and she pressed something on his phone and he got mad and threw her in her playpen she seemed fine after that and on her birthday party she was taking a nap and my grandma wanted to see her I went to go wake her up and she wasnt waking my dad and his friends thought it was funny and were waving pillows in her face I was telling them to stop she wasnt waking up so I call 9-1-1 and they took her away after that I heard later that she died of brain damage and hemmorging to the head my dad got arrested we got put in the system and later we got adopted. Now I am 15 and am dating my best friend of 3 years and I live with his mom and dad and him. My mom allowed it as long as I dont make stupid choices. Just because you had a tough life dont let it bring you down. I thought my bio mom didnt love me and care about me because she never has tried to reach out to me so I started cutting because I wanted to know why.... my bf noticed and stopped me he told me that if she doesnt want to reach out to you than obviously she doesnt know how great of a person you have become. so please know it gets better and you need to stay strong:)

From a different anonymous

Answer 3

I don't know why but seeing that you posted what I wrote and all made me smile...

Answer 4

awwww thank you so much it means a lot that you care about us and that you are there for us!!! <3 i have not done anything in 1 year so i am doing good i do still drink now and then but not that much and its not a big deal.. i am getting away from it

Answer 5

Why the hell am I linked here...

Answer 6

>.< Please don't mass tag. Esp. with irrelevant posts.

Answer 7

you are welcome @alesia/bailey and @Destinycholie

Answer 8

thanks!

Answer 9

you are welcome

Answer 10

Fu ck now im crying thank you made my day!!

Answer 11

You are welcome... i guess... @Lily7

Answer 12

What do you mean by i guess @YouSir

Answer 13

i made you cry. i never reallly saw that as a good thing

Answer 14

your awesome!

Answer 15

I am not awesome @aerial_cheer

Answer 16

yeah you are

Answer 17

Thx! I love all of you. you are really making my day too.

Answer 18

Well i'm crying because it was a good thing and yeah tears of joy

Answer 19

okay.

Answer 20

@Crissy15 this is what i meant

Answer 21

oh ok,id cry but my heart broke

Answer 22

i have never seen so many people on one post. and no

Answer 23

lol

Answer 24

it touched peoples heart

Answer 25

yes it did

Answer 26

thank you

Answer 27

To that special someone:Well first off, you're freaking adorable. Your laugh makes me smile, and your eyes are so attractive I find it difficult to pay attention to anything else. But more importantly, you know how to brighten my day, no matter what. And the fact that you might not like me back breaks my heart. But if I had the chance to I would let you wrap your arms around me and let you never let go you make me happy every day.
From @Lily7

Answer 28

awwwwwww

Answer 29

cute

Answer 30

i am taking peoples quotes and putting them out there

Answer 31

Well take my other one lol who all liked the one he tagged me in its mine

Answer 32

lily has been weiting the most.

Answer 33

writing

Answer 34

Wow...

Answer 35

Yeah go see my other one

Answer 36

Hey you.
Yes you. Stop being unhappy with yourself you are perfect. Stop wishing you looked like someone else or wishing people liked you as much as they like someone else. Stop trying to get attention from those who hurt you. Stop hating your body, you face, your personality, your quirks. Love them. Without those you wouldn't be confident with who you are. Smile. It'll draw people in, of anyone hates on you are happy with yourself then you stick your middle finger in the air and say screw it. My happiness will not depend on others anymore, I'm happy because I love who I am. I love my flaws.
From @Lily7

Answer 37

All I can say is that, if you make the right choices and learn to move on...Everything will end up being alright in the end. :) Things always get better. There is always an up hill to a down hill. And sometimes flat, ;p -Sam

Answer 38

how can i show you that you are worth something to someone
i know i am someone you don't know and you don't care what i have to say
but what you don't know is that i have been there sure i look fine and i seem ok but really i am broken down inside you learn to hide the feelings you have and learn to deal with the stuff that comes your way it takes a lot of strength but you get used to it i promise i will always be there if you need and if you every want someone to talk to!! i care about everyone i really do!!!\From @Destinycholie

Answer 39

I want you all to tag other fans. I would also enjoy if you could find other quotes.

Answer 40

I want to hold hands with you just to see how perfectly shaped they are together. Just to feel your warmth or coldness and rough skin. Just to never have to let go of you.
Just so you know, I still care. We may not have spoken to each other in a while, but that doesn't mean if my phone lit up with your name tonight my heart wouldn't skip a beat like it used to.
It would Right?
-Lillian
From @Lily7

Answer 41

I want you all to tag other fans. I would also enjoy if you could find other quotes.
@Shadowgirl15 @Lily7 @HelpBlahBlahBlah @HaileyD @happyyanee4 @Destinycholie @mansaa @marylou004 @dejmccray @aerial_cheer @alesia/bailey @Alina123 @sammie2017 @missbrightside15

Answer 42

Well i got 6 more one about my mom but its sad

Answer 43

you can msg me them and i will make them anonymous. this is to everyone

Answer 44

I will just post it so everyyone could see it

Answer 45

@mathgeek27 @arris04 @body @Angel_Halo23 @MakaylaTracy @paki @skyz @One098

Answer 46

I g2g sorry guys

Answer 47

waooo.... nice.... <3

i love all my friends.... they are my life....

and thanks for tagging me... @Destinycholie

Answer 48

no problem @paki thanks for looking!!! <3

Answer 49

Maybe if I followed my heart, it'll lead me to a bridge and make me jump. Or perhaps it'll lead me out of the darkness and into the light. But we all know that doesn't happen. Either you have the best life or you have the worst. I, on the other hand, have the sucky life. The one where when I go somewhere something bad has to happen. So don't tell me to stay strong when I can't even figure out what to do with myself. Don't tell me it's gonna be okay, because its not going to be. I fake smiles everywhere I go, yet nobody can see through the wall I'm building
From Anonymous

Answer 50

Hmm I'm not sure what I think about that... @alesia/bailey

Answer 51

??

Answer 52

Life is not so black and white. You don't have either the best life ever or the worst...

Answer 53

If life worked that way, I think a lot of people would be killing themselves.

Answer 54

@Squirrels

Answer 55

:)
Yeah, I know this, the writer does not.
tell it to the person who wrote it..

Answer 56

Lol how can I when it says From Anonymous xD

Answer 57

Meth is ideal.

Answer 58

Lol what Josh xD

Answer 59

mom
My mom was so beautiful her skin was a light brown color like cinnamon with a little drop of honey, she never had a job but she had money, her hands felt rich, We never really had a car but well get around. But now her pain and suffering is gone, Because she is 6 feet down in the ground. I always wondered if she was watching me from far far away, But if i had the chance i go up there for a day, She has family there in heaven, It was lonely and fun and amazing without her on my birthday June 6th she never forgot it, Just know that Lily loves you and i will see you soon!
from @Lily7