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I can still hear your voice in my dreams but i dont know if its the real you so far away but for some reason I can still feel you I try to close my eyes but it doesn't help I can still see you its like I put in a trance I try to stop but it but I just cant its like my heart doesn't want to its hard to pretend its not there but it is I still remember our first kiss its like time slowed down around me and I didn't want it to end but i guess its true what they all say nothing good last forever but in my mind I never wanted it to end I had no idea what was happening around me I was just glad that finally a piece of happiness found me waking up in the morning all I think about is the memories we once shared I swear some nights my dreams begin with senses so vivid I feel like I lose myself in the past and I don't want it to end but I'm also afriad if I don't relive those moments I'm afriad that the last few memories I have of you left wont last they will drift and fade into nothingness and you will turn into nothing but a ghost but of all the time we spend together its the beginging I remember the most because the first time I made you smile it felt like the warmth of the sun made itself inside me for a while I mean I could go on forever to list the things that describe it I would get lost in a sea of words and it would be hard trying to keep my head up and even though your past relationships left you in bits and pieces I promised you that I would love all your imperfections the moment your eyes thanked me I saw myself In their reflection and I relized that you had let me in where only a few others had been what was once shrouded in the darkness suddenly became clear it was the side of your heart that you hidden all you feared all that you ever lost all the regrets you buried and all the memories that you lost its all the nights you cried so hard it left you breathless overwhelmed with disspoiment and second guesses I know its not easy when every step you take reminded of a past mistake when every smile that you fake hides pain and at the end of the day you cant help but to let it all out and away the most fustred thing about love is that it can be so uncertain its like a leap of faith brace yourself because you wont always make it sometimes you gotta fall to get a taste of failure but eventually you will learn not to fear it I still think about her though everyday Ill love her always thought anything and that wont change