It happened today,
and my leg still burns.
Yeah I kicked first.
Say it loud.
Use it like it explains everything.
It doesn’t.
Years of fear and pain live in my muscles,
not in a single moment.
He grabbed me.
And I was small again,
learning early that fathers can hurt
and still call it discipline.
“You don’t have a future.”
“You’ll end up on the streets.”
“Like your brother.”
As if my life is already written,
as if dreams only exist when he sees them.
I had plans.
Quiet ones.
Real ones.
Maybe if he paid attention,
he’d know I’m trying.
I mess up.
I get in trouble.
But who taught me how to grow
without fear in my own home?
Not everyone grows perfect.
Some of us grow defensive, bruised, angry.
I’m not trying to be bad.
I’m trying to survive,
trying to become more
than the version he predicted.
Today hurt.
But today does not define me.
I am not the street.
I am not my brother.
I am the child he ignored
and I will rise anyway.

Question

addison123456 · Answer

I feel this poem. why does it hit so hard. I was in that exact situation and damn I feel this. I am so sorry this happened. its like that parent choosing the others over you because that one sibling messed up. you will be strong and you WILL not let him get to you.

forgetmylife · Answer

I feel like crying after reading this, your words hit hard jazzy. I may not understand the pain that youre going through but I’m always here. Im nas your friend who will be here through all your up’s and down. Like you told me jazzy we don’t give up. We won’t we’ll fight and thrive we will conquer every obstacle. Im here till the end.

unknownnnnnn · Answer

@addison123456 wrote:

I feel this poem. why does it hit so hard. I was in that exact situation and damn I feel this. I am so sorry this happened. its like that parent choosing the others over you because that one sibling messed up. you will be strong and you WILL not let him get to you.

thank you i hate living in this life like this but thank you for understanding

unknownnnnnn · Answer

@forgetmylife wrote:

I feel like crying after reading this, your words hit hard jazzy. I may not understand the pain that youre going through but I’m always here. Im nas your friend who will be here through all your up’s and down. Like you told me jazzy we don’t give up. We won’t we’ll fight and thrive we will conquer every obstacle. Im here till the end.

yes we will nas thank you so much

addison123456 · Answer

@unknownnnnnn wrote:

@addison123456 wrote:

I feel this poem. why does it hit so hard. I was in that exact situation and damn I feel this. I am so sorry this happened. its like that parent choosing the others over you because that one sibling messed up. you will be strong and you WILL not let him get to you.

thank you i hate living in this life like this but thank you for understanding

yk I just say two things about this u gotta laugh somehow. "we live and then we die" "this life is too much for me"

unknownnnnnn · Answer

@addison123456 wrote:

@unknownnnnnn wrote:

@addison123456 wrote:

I feel this poem. why does it hit so hard. I was in that exact situation and damn I feel this. I am so sorry this happened. its like that parent choosing the others over you because that one sibling messed up. you will be strong and you WILL not let him get to you.

thank you i hate living in this life like this but thank you for understanding

yk I just say two things about this u gotta laugh somehow. "we live and then we die" "this life is too much for me"

Exactly. We live, we die, and in between we try not to lose our minds.

addison123456 · Answer

@unknownnnnnn wrote:

@addison123456 wrote:

@unknownnnnnn wrote:

@addison123456 wrote:

I feel this poem. why does it hit so hard. I was in that exact situation and damn I feel this. I am so sorry this happened. its like that parent choosing the others over you because that one sibling messed up. you will be strong and you WILL not let him get to you.

thank you i hate living in this life like this but thank you for understanding

yk I just say two things about this u gotta laugh somehow. "we live and then we die" "this life is too much for me"

Exactly. We live, we die, and in between we try not to lose our minds.

yes lol. always. just stick to yourself. do better so no one can tell u what you are. be the best you can be because u can always be better. u are strong tho for dealing with that still. I left that and I'm glad but good job

seeker · Answer

its so liver touching .... am gonna read it again

zionn · Answer

Very touching and heartfelt poem, great job

unknownnnnnn · Answer

@zionn wrote:

Very touching and heartfelt poem, great job

thank u

zionn · Answer

@unknownnnnnn wrote:

@zionn wrote:

Very touching and heartfelt poem, great job

thank u

Yea, no problem

Addif9911 · Answer

I feel this on a deeper level than I would like to. Except not about my father physically, he's never been there. My mothers ex bfs physically. my Mimi physically and emotionally. Instead of brother dad. You did so good keep going.

mcglones29 · Answer

this dose hit hard cause my father beat my mother and wanted me to be like him in every way to the point I have his last name  and my first name is just his name with an A