Question

you still have friends who love you. it does not matter how many you have. all that matters is that someone thinks about you. A friend who cares for you. that is all you need. do not commit suicide and do not cut just because someone does not say they think about you. I had the same problems until i found out this. some people do not have anything and are raped and or killed and no one notices because no one cares. you have people. they are just too nervous to confront you.

Answer 1

.. I've dealt with so much ever since I was born.. my life was never good. then I got sent away after living with my mom and her abusive bf b4 I was 5. always unstable and moving, my mom did a lot of things she shouldn't have done that were illegal, including drugs and strangling someone after breaking down there door when she was a teenager..

I was always confused growing up.. but then I got sent to my dads and sexual abuse happened on my stepmoms side of the family, growing up I had relationship issues with my family with my stepbrother and stepmother, and I started to hate my mom. I was scared of turning to drugs at the age of 7 by the most. I set rules on how far I went and I controlled my every word and action. everyone knew me as the goody-goody because I was scared to dig myself a hole after watching my stepbrother losing control and throwing things and cursing.. I didn't want to be that.

in elementary school I was seriously planning on running away but I didn't because I knew it wasn't realistic and I thought of the after math. and I isolated myself all the time, you would never see me in the house unless you found me in my room curled up in a corner daydreaming to escape reality. I used creative things to do that, reading, writing, drawing etc.

but I grew up more and in 5th grade I was in middle school. I got bullied a lot, I ended up getting detention and teachers dragged me (literally) out of classes oblivious about the other students mocking me and saying hurtful things to get others to point and laugh while I was curled in a ball against a wall crying feeling more comfort in that position. I moved to other schools and things got worse, I hated everyone, I screamed my lungs out at someone in school at lunch b4 because I bottled everything up.

I tried to get help, I reached out my hand desperate for help.. but everyone always begged to differ about who they thought I was. they thought I was happy and in this freaking wonderland world where everything was perfect and got me 2 second guess myself.. I though I was a wannabe and wanted attention, I was confused..

in about Jan. to Feb. this year I got overwhelmed and I ended up cutting and that was sadly the best thing that had happened in my life, I smiled and felt so much relief I cried and kinda laughed and I slept well for the first time in forever..
But I didn't really know why I did it.. now I know it was to show how hurt I was, on the second day I had about 30 cut on one wrist and I didn't hide it.. and my stepmom saw my scars.. she talked to me as if I was five... and they didn't do anything, I overheard her talking to my dad and he didn't seem upset he was goofing off saying "oh yeah" :P
and I cried, I almost cried in front of her screaming on the inside to just let her know I wasn't alright..

I was visting my mom and she was on my case, always bringing things up and knew something was wrong..
so I opened up to her and now I live with her again.. she was working on fixing herself up this whole time to get me back, but she never knew it would be because of this.
I then put everything out on her.. I let go and fell into my hole I made, I couldn't hold onto anything and I ended up in the hospital, I actually ended up cursing her out, from the girl that refused to cuss in front of anyone because it was part of my disguise.. my outfit I made from a young age.. I threw things and freaked..
but I am determined to get myself together again.
I stopped instantly.
You can choose your path, but you have to be willing, you have to find your hope and reasons why you wont go down the wrong path, and my rreason is because of my best friend Thomas. I made a promise and I can literally see in my mind of how hurt everyone would be if I do something stupid, and I cant afford that..
I shut all that out and made it not a choice.
I didn't get all religious or anything..
but im finding my way, and I don't get what I use to get out of cutting, because I have no reason to do it anymore.
I get to start over by living with my mom.
but its still hard.
She got her son back, he is ten and its overwhelming..
He tried to run away, we called the police on him because he has no control, he is ten
..
and im scared for my stepbrother because he thinks he is "emo"
and I thought I was and ppl begged to differ..
and I hope he is wrong but.. idk
we are like best friends and love each other, compared to hating him..
a lot changed
But I hope you hold on.
Think.. if I was that mature since I was 5.. then gave up but changed my perspective..
You have to have a willingly opened mind about what you are doing and where it will get you.
From cutting to not cutting for awhile but cutted again once I saw how horrible it was, I literally was about to throw up I was so scared. I cried and I couldn't do it. I ended up telling my mom afterwards after about 10 to 20 minutes b4 school.
That feeling of depression is horrible the last time I felt that way I wanted to end that feeling it was strong and overwhelming that I wanted to just die and not deal with it.

From Anonymous.

Answer 2

wow, I cant even put into words how I feel after I read that. Nobody should have to go through what you did. I too had a hard life, I was an accident my mom got pregnant at 14 with me and she soon got scared and left me with my dad who was on drugs and aggresive I never saw my mom until they hooked up again and got pregnant woth my brother she left him with my dad as well and we lived with him. I always had to take care of everyone in the house there were me , jason(my brother) kianna dads gf daughter and hailey dads gf daughter. Than my mom and dad hooked up again and had my little sister my dad didnt think it was his kid and one day I wasnt watching her and she pressed something on his phone and he got mad and threw her in her playpen she seemed fine after that and on her birthday party she was taking a nap and my grandma wanted to see her I went to go wake her up and she wasnt waking my dad and his friends thought it was funny and were waving pillows in her face I was telling them to stop she wasnt waking up so I call 9-1-1 and they took her away after that I heard later that she died of brain damage and hemmorging to the head my dad got arrested we got put in the system and later we got adopted. Now I am 15 and am dating my best friend of 3 years and I live with his mom and dad and him. My mom allowed it as long as I dont make stupid choices. Just because you had a tough life dont let it bring you down. I thought my bio mom didnt love me and care about me because she never has tried to reach out to me so I started cutting because I wanted to know why.... my bf noticed and stopped me he told me that if she doesnt want to reach out to you than obviously she doesnt know how great of a person you have become. so please know it gets better and you need to stay strong:)

From a different anonymous

Answer 3

To that special someone:Well first off, you're freaking adorable. Your laugh makes me smile, and your eyes are so attractive I find it difficult to pay attention to anything else. But more importantly, you know how to brighten my day, no matter what. And the fact that you might not like me back breaks my heart. But if I had the chance to I would let you wrap your arms around me and let you never let go you make me happy every day.
From @Lily7

Answer 4

Hey you.
Yes you. Stop being unhappy with yourself you are perfect. Stop wishing you looked like someone else or wishing people liked you as much as they like someone else. Stop trying to get attention from those who hurt you. Stop hating your body, you face, your personality, your quirks. Love them. Without those you wouldn't be confident with who you are. Smile. It'll draw people in, of anyone hates on you are happy with yourself then you stick your middle finger in the air and say screw it. My happiness will not depend on others anymore, I'm happy because I love who I am. I love my flaws.
From @Lily7

Answer 5

but what you don't know is that i have been there sure i look fine and i seem ok but really i am broken down inside you learn to hide the feelings you have and learn to deal with the stuff that comes your way it takes a lot of strength but you get used to it i promise i will always be there if you need and if you every want someone to talk to!! i care about everyone i really do!!!
From @Destinycholie

Answer 6

Maybe if I followed my heart, it'll lead me to a bridge and make me jump. Or perhaps it'll lead me out of the darkness and into the light. But we all know that doesn't happen. Either you have the best life or you have the worst. I, on the other hand, have the sucky life. The one where when I go somewhere something bad has to happen. So don't tell me to stay strong when I can't even figure out what to do with myself. Don't tell me it's gonna be okay, because its not going to be. I fake smiles everywhere I go, yet nobody can see through the wall I'm building
From Anonymous

Answer 7

mom
My mom was so beautiful her skin was a light brown color like cinnamon with a little drop of honey, she never had a job but she had money, her hands felt rich, We never really had a car but well get around. But now her pain and suffering is gone, Because she is 6 feet down in the ground. I always wondered if she was watching me from far far away, But if i had the chance i go up there for a day, She has family there in heaven, It was lonely and fun and amazing without her on my birthday June 6th she never forgot it, Just know that Lily loves you and i will see you soon!
from @Lily7

Answer 8

@Shadowgirl15 @Lily7 @HelpBlahBlahBlah @HaileyD @happyyanee4 @Destinycholie @mansaa @marylou004 @dejmccray @aerial_cheer @alesia/bailey @Alina123 @sammie2017 @missbrightside15 @mathgeek27 @arris04 @body @Angel_Halo23 @MakaylaTracy @paki @skyz @One098 @rebecca99
You all have someone who loves you. do not hide your real self from the world! LET YOUR VOICE BE HEARD! I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT YOU ARE NOT ALONE! I HAVE BEEN HIDING FROM THE REAL WORLD FOR 3 YEARS AND I AM FED UP WITH IT! I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH MANY PROBLEMS AND I HAVE WANTED TO HIDE IN A CORNER AND CRY! I AM NEO DALLMEYER AND I AM SCARED TO TELL PEOPLE THAT I LOVE THEM! I AM SCARED TO STATE MY OPINION! I AM SCARED TO STAND UP FOR WHAT I BELIEVE IN! I AM SCARED TO TELL EVERYONE AT SCHOOL THAT I AM BI-SEXUAL AND I HAD A CRUSH ON A GUY AND ALSO THAT I HAD A BOYFRIEND BEFORE! i AM SCARED TO SHOW PEOPLE MY TRUE SELF BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT THEM TO JUDGE ME! NOT TODAY! I AM LETTING EVERYBODY KNOW THAT I AM SCARED AND I FELT ALONE! NOW I KNOW THAT I AM NOT ALONE!
Add more peeps please.

Answer 9

No matter what has happened. No matter what you've done. No matter what you will do. I will always love you. I swear it...

I wanted to tell you that wherever I am, whatever happens, I'll always think of you, and the time we spent together, as my happiest time. I'd do it all over again, if I had the choice. No regrets...

And in her smile I see something more beautiful than the stars...

Sometimes I can't see myself when I'm with you. I can only just see you...

The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart...

A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous...

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly...

I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you...

Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within...

To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides...

To find someone who will love you for no reason, and to shower that person with reasons, that is the ultimate happiness...

I love you, not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you...

The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space...

You know you're in love when you don't want to fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams...

The madness of love is the greatest of heaven's blessings...

If I know what love is, it is because of you...

A tramp, a gentleman, a poet, a dreamer, a lonely fellow, always hopeful of romance and adventure...

From @paki

Answer 10

I don't know you much @YouSir ..but if you ever need anyone to talk to or to just listen, I'm here for you.

Answer 11

thx @One098

Answer 12

No problem.

Answer 13

try adding some more people that have had provlems like me and my friends @One098
and also look at these @agarrison

Answer 14

you too @Nnesha

Answer 15

i was rude ????
really
that was just question
i don't know how its become rude

Answer 16

@MTALHAHASSAN2 here is something to help u write

Answer 17

so freaking beautiful :')

Answer 18

thx

Answer 19

the ones that i did not say were from somebody, they are mine, i wrote them myself.

Answer 20

@MakaylaTracy What are you doing!?

Answer 21

thanks for tagging... really nice post <3

Answer 22

you are welcome

Answer 23

@agarrison did i tag you?

Answer 24

Really awesome post @YouSir :)

Answer 25

thx

Answer 26

:) Beautiful.

Answer 27

oh wow thanks for the tag this is really beautiful