Question

What do you all think?


You know I looked up to you, I tried to be like you. You inspired me to do great things in my life. Then you started using. I saw what it was doing to you, and I just sat there. I was just a little kid mom. I could see in your eyes that you were gone. You weren't my mother, you were someone else. I saw you spiral, into nothingness. You didn't want to get help,Why didn't you want to get help. Mom, I just wanted you to be here. See me win my softball championship. See my work in an art show, See me graduate middle school. Talk about boys with me and how my day went. All I wanted was a mother, a friend. And you took that away from me. For all these years, All these years I have been so broken.Everytime I hear your name i can't help but cry. All that pain floods my mind.The memories etched in my head. Because I watched you slowly lose yourself. I miss you, But I’m angry...No I'm furious. You chose to leave me. You chose to not be in my life. But yet I still love and miss you. What's wrong with me.I don't want to miss you but I do. And I hate myself for that. You ruined me mom. You took a part of me that I can never get back. When you love someone there's like an imaginary tether, We were connected mom. Every Time I felt alone I would know that the invisible tether was there. No matter how far you were, you were with me. And that's what kept me sane.When you left me, that tether disappeared. I tried to reach for it but it was gone. Now knowing I Dont have anyone, I feel like I'm going to lose myself, Just like you. I Will never forgive you.I will never forgive how you left me, It’s been 16 years...16 years! Im better off without you.Words cant express how much I truly despise you. And yet somehow, somehow I still love you. You don't deserve children. You sure as hell don't deserve me, You chose to abandon me and you chose to use drugs as a coping mechanism. You are a bad person, This world isn't fair but one day, One day you’ll get yours. You’ll feel all the pain I've had to go through. It feels like you're dying. Feels like your heart has literally sunk.I hope that day comes soon. I really do.

Answer 1

Ive never shared this before but here goes nothing...

Answer 2

I like it. It's a bit sad tho

Answer 3

thats the point...

Answer 4

I lost my mom when I was 7

Answer 5

Im sorry...really. If you ever need to talk i got you...

Answer 6

I'm good its been years

Answer 7

same, just hurts

Answer 8

yeh

Answer 9

0-0 oof

Answer 10

Awe! It's super good. I am too emotional to read things like that.

Answer 11

yea fr, i poured my soul into it

Answer 12

aww i like it i love it keep it up nice job i really love it its sad but its still good

Answer 13

My half-sister's dad died from drugs and I know what they do to people so I guess it hit close to home. You can tell that you really put a lot of emotion into it

Answer 14

thanks, and im sorry for ur loss. Its a diferent kind of pain

Answer 15

yeah im sorry to

Answer 16

hey if you wanna chat you can dm me. I think its very good.

Answer 17

noice

Answer 18

thanks

Answer 19

me likey

Answer 20

oof

Answer 21

Nonono, that's awesome
Glad you moved forward

Answer 22

its sadddddd

Answer 23

ilost my dog lol

Answer 24

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ilost my dog lol
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how is losing ur dog funny?

Answer 25

deep

Answer 26

no all just wwanted to put lol

Answer 27

This is very deep, almost made me cry ngl- this hit very close to home, i hope you get the reassurance you need to move on, and if you ever want to talk, im always here x

Answer 28

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