Question

I hate myself so much I don’t even know what I want in life anymore, whats the purpose in life if all everyone does is ruin it, I just wish that I wasn’t even made to be on earth I don’t even understand why I’m here if all I had was a crapy childhood growing up nobody wanted me I’ve been in foster care at the age 1 to 11 and I was finally adopted and yet I don’t have a best life but I can say is I have a better life than what I did before this family. I may be 16 but soon I’m turning 17 in 2 weeks to be exact I don’t know what I want for myself at all when I just recently was ghosted by some people, I wish I could just end my life right now I don’t deserve this life and or to be on earth someone can take my place and be in a rich family I don’t deserve them all they do is treat me right and I take the bad parts about them and make them look bad. I’m just done with me I should go to jail and rot in a stall I rather be death rn. I’ve done so many things to kill myself in the past but none of them work at all I’ve done overdose, ran away, injected myself, cut myself, everything I wish I didn’t do to know that i was going to make it now my time has come and I deserve to not waste someone else’s air they need it more than me Goodbye friends

Answer 1

The one song that keeps popping up in my head is scars by Toby Mac goodbye guys

Answer 2

You know, I get where you’re coming from. The feeling of not fitting in anywhere, or feeling of not being wanted by anyone. I know that feeling of looking at your life and saying that everything is not going well. Sometimes you feel like you ruin it for other people or sometimes you feel like you’re just not good enough, but There’s no reason to hate yourself. We all go through hard times, it’s completely normal. You just have to find the one thing in your life to hold onto. Whether it be that group of friends that you always talk to, or a hobby, a sport, something that makes you feel like you have a purpose. just because you don’t feel like you have a purpose doesn’t mean that you belong here. sometimes it’s just hard to see. There’s not much I can say or I can do to help you through whatever you’re going through because obviously it’s much deeper than somebody online can tell you, but you gotta find something. You can’t just give up. you know if you’re religious God is always somebody you can turn to somebody. You can talk to somebody. You can try and relate to, but you do have to find something. You can’t let this feeling of hopelessness and unworthiness take over your life and make you feel like less than you are, thinking about all the bad things you’ve done, or how life is just terrible and screw you over sometimes because I will admit it does, but keep looking at the bright side. Look at all the friends you’ve made, look at the positive impact you’ve made on your friends, your family. You have to realize that there’s a lot of good things that we just let go by that we don’t realize how good they actually are. And I understand that. Anyways, I hope this helps you out a little bit, but if I were you, I’d obviously try and talk to God if you believe in God, or just talk to friends, but definitely try and talk to a therapist. Somebody who can actually help you through these problems. Hope you feel better

Answer 3

You know the reason why U have not died IS CAUSE JESUS IS NOT DONE WITH U

Answer 4

IF u ever need somebody to talk to text me i DONT JUDGE only listen and reason with

Answer 5

I feel u because I was In foster care and they make u feel like ur at home then they try giving u everything u want them u jus look at the bad parts of them it’s not fun trust me and ik ur feelings

Answer 6

oh okay !!!!

Answer 7

wow!

Answer 8

oooooooo

Answer 9

I understand how you feel its just life sucks

Answer 10

Wanna talk message me

Answer 11

Grow up bro, stop surrounding yourself with these depressed people and you'll see a change

Answer 12

he's not wrong ^ . stop making questioncove ur life brobro <3

Answer 13

pray to god

Answer 14

hey girl, idk you, i never talked to you b4 but i wanna tell you to stop thinking negative and push out all the people who make it worse for you. It's not easy for you rn, and i believe that too, when i was 16 i had allot of that stuff too and its hard when there are no friends to hear you out...
Eventually, you will pass thru it, and sometiems its worth it to learn hard lessons bc later on it will be easier... trust me girl. we all go thru crap and its hard... if its a toxic family, idk girl, idk you situation, but i recommend you to start saving up and be always prepared to run away... but thats only if u got a toxic family..
start doing things that you want, just start looking into yourself, what do you enjoy, whats your hobby, spent time on what you love, try to keep negative thoughts out, try to find motivation, set up a plan on what you want..
sometimes its good to cry out, keeping everything bottled in, will be harder in the future... just always look up to positivity...
Also I am a Christian and I will pray for you. Jesus died for all of us, and He will be there for you if you ask Him for help. He made a huge step for our humanity, to save us, and dont lose that chance by killing yourself.
Trust Me Girl, God created you for something much special and I trust you, I believe that one day you will go thru it and you will pass thru everything.... You will end up being proud and happy bc the change will happen, you will see positivity...
You must turn to the bright side to see the future.
Pls dont doubt yourself, and whoever those ppl were who treated you like trash, May God forgive them and just stay away from them.
Ik im not the best advice giver but hey girl, just hang in there, start looking at things your way....
I've made it thru, you will too!
If you need anything DM me pls!

Answer 15

oh yeah one more thing, try to live your life the way you want it, and i recommend you that spending time online wont help much, its kinda like time killing ya know
esp rn its summer
make a bucket list, go make yourself feel happy again, spent time on doing whatveer you want, dont lock yourself up in the room looking thru social media
sometimes social media can be fake too, ppl just show their bright side and it can affect on ppl who watch that...
just do and enjoy your life sweetie!

Answer 16

honestly, ify.

Answer 17

Kys

Answer 18

Definitely not the place to discuss this at, but whatever.


One note, adopted person to another, you better be happy you actually got chose to be in a family, a lot of people neglect adoption as an option unless they physically can’t have children themselves.

You’re causing your mood, nobody else is.

If you put yourself up and remind yourself that you’re the only one who controls your own emotions, you’ll see the difference.

Answer 19

I totally understand what you're going through, this is just how life is, sometimes you feel like a burden, you feel like your not enough for your friends and family, you wonder why you're life is like this,you just need to know that there's a lot of happiness in life, its not just about letting yourself down and feeling sad all the time, just look at the world around you, you're not ALONE, there are plenty of people who feel the same as you or even worse, be happy that a family even decided to adopt you, be lucky that you have a home, you are alive because of JESUS, because of him your not dead, there have been times where I have wanted to end my self but I have realized that it wasn't worth it, what I was going through was pointless, please don't die you're only 16 and you have more to your life to explore, and if you need someone to talk to I'm here :)