Question

Feelings ig

Answer 1

I’m not going to lie—I really hate myself. The self-loathing and anger I feel are consuming, and I honestly don’t know how to cope with it anymore. I mess up a lot, and it seems like I often give people reasons to dislike me. I can see it in their faces when they get upset or uncomfortable around me. In those moments, I try to play it off as if I don’t care, but the truth is that I care deeply. The last thing I want is to make anyone feel uneasy or unsafe in my presence.
It hurts to think that others might see me as someone unworthy or unpleasant. What I crave more than anything else is reassurance—that I’m not the terrible person I often believe myself to be, or that others perceive me as. There’s this nagging voice in my head telling me that I don’t deserve kindness or understanding, and I know it’s not right, but it’s hard to silence it. I imagine that people reading this might think, “Oh, he probably doesn’t act like this in real life,” but this is my reality. It feels increasingly overwhelming, and I fear it’s getting worse.
I genuinely don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable; that’s the last thing I desire. Yet, I hear snippets of advice like, “You need to stop this,” or “You’ll never change,” and it cuts deeper than they realize. Each comment feels like a confirmation of my worst fears—that I’m trapped in a cycle of negativity and self-doubt that I can’t seem to break free from. Sometimes, I feel like I’m screaming for help internally, only for my voice to echo in an empty room.
I’m fully aware of my past, and I know it’s not a pretty one. There are decisions I’ve made, mistakes I can’t take back, and moments that haunt me. Despite my awareness, the journey to change feels lengthy and daunting. Still, I’m striving to become a better version of myself, but I also know I have a long way to go. I’ve lied, I’ve hurt people—often without intending to—and each instance adds to the weight I carry. I don’t want to keep living in the shadow of my mistakes.
Most days, I put on a brave face to the world, projecting an image of strength and resilience. But inside, I feel far from strong. The reality is that I struggle with a lot of self-doubt and insecurity. I overthink everything, often losing myself in a maze of negative thoughts. This is why I eventually decided to come clean to SJ (Koko) about my mistakes; I couldn’t hold the burden in any longer. The shame of hiding the truth felt unbearable.
I recognize that my actions have damaged good relationships—relationships that were filled with genuine loyalty and kindness. It pains me to acknowledge that I’ve been the one to break those connections. I constantly wrestle with the belief that I’m always sabotaging the things that could bring me happiness. I wish I could turn back time, to somehow rewrite those moments where I hurt those I care about.
At times, I feel like I'm standing at the edge of a precipice, teetering between despair and the hope for change. I yearn for the strength to navigate through this pain and uncertainty. I want to find a way to understand myself better and to reshape my self-image into something healthier. Most importantly, I want to seek out a sense of inner peace, to believe that I’m deserving of love and forgiveness—not just from others, but from myself.
Through this journey, I’m learning that healing isn’t linear. There will be days filled with self-doubt and regrets, but there might also be moments of clarity and growth. As I strive to move beyond my past, I hold onto the hope that there’s a path forward—that I can become someone who isn’t defined by their mistakes but rather by their willingness to grow and improve.
If I can find a way to forgive myself, perhaps I can start to mend those broken relationships, rebuild my connections, and discover what it means to be truly accepted, both by others and by myself. All I want is a chance to become better and to show that I am more than the sum of my mistakes.

Answer 2

This is deep. It tells a lot. But something you shouldn't do is let others bring you down. And you shouldn't down yourself either. From the gray I know he does dumb things yes but everybody does and I know he cares. Not everybody is gonna see that because they don't care. You can always try and fix things that got ruined but that might not be the solution your looking for. " struggle with a lot of self-doubt and insecurity." This is real. Alot of us to but you can and should try and overcome that. You have friends here n irl and you have fam whose here for you. Ily gray u a homie since a been here n I'm grateful. Js don't let ppl bring u down n don't bring urself down either.

Answer 3

Wow, this message resonates deeply with me. It's important to recognize that each person is created uniquely, just as they are meant to be. I truly believe that we should embrace our authentic selves and find joy in who we are, as it reflects our individuality made by god. I genuinely hope you can find peace and happiness in your skin, appreciating the beauty of your uniqueness.

Answer 4

I've felt the way you do now. It was hard for me to give up on how I felt. I was struggling, I tried killing myself. No one realized how bad it was. The best thing to do is figure out the problem and get it out of your life. You can also figure out a way to keep it in your life, but make your life better for it. Talking about it to someone can help. If you're guilty about something, it helps to get it off your chest. I spent about 2 miserable years with a girl who treated me like her little puppet, finally, I broke it off and told her to shove it. It made my life 100% better. If you want to fix your relationships, then you need to try to talk to them and find a resolution, but also try to keep a good relationship with them. For the insecurity, it helps to change your appearance a little bit. Try harder to look good. Wear cologne, comb your hair, brush your teeth, wear dress clothes, etc. The biggest thing is your mindset; if you think, " I'm not good enough," then that's how you're going to feel. If you think, "I'm the most bad a$$ one here," Then you'll feel powerful. Do you know that in the bible, there's a part where they have to travel by boat from point A to point B? They saw Jesus walking on water and they asked him for help. So he helped. and told one of the men to walk on water with him. A huge wave came crashing down, and the guy started to drown, but Jesus saved him and said, "You lost faith in me". The thing I love about this story is the moral of it. The moral of the story is that life is going to be hard. You're sailing on a boat, no one can promise it's going to be easy. Jesus told them to sail from point A to point B. He didn't say it was going to be easy, but he helped them on the way, yes. That was only because he was asked to. I guess what I'm trying to say is this: If you're going through hell, keep on going. Don't slow down, you're scared, don't show it. You might get out before the devil even knows you're there. If you have any more questions or need to talk, I'm here to talk and give advice.

Answer 5

I hate that its relatable....

Answer 6

I do too

Answer 7

I think most everybody has felt like $hit at least once in their lives.

Answer 8

That's a fact. It's easy to feel bad abut your self. I know this quote and it got me through some tough times it's a Robin Williams quote. Here it is: “I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it's like to feel absolutely worthless and they don't want anyone else to feel like that”

Answer 9

yea rmb hear sum about that,hes one of the ppl whos keepin me goin,tho he ended it all

Answer 10

Yeah...

Answer 11

Man this is relatable ash

Answer 12

Real

Answer 13

Oh this is deep

Answer 14

You know what else is deep...

Answer 15

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Answer 16

this is reality, alot of people go through this and its really sad. I hope whoever relates to this find peace and happiness along the way, ik you have people that truly care about you. Dont let anyone bring you down, you have a long way to go. dont give up on yourself and keep doing you.

Answer 17

I agree, it's important to know that people are surrounding you and your never lone and people care abut you. Even if it doesn't seem like it at times.