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The word slipped out like it was nothing. Like it didn’t carry weight. Like it wouldn’t land and stay. I told myself it was a joke. That she’d laugh it off. That she knew I didn’t mean it. But the second it was said, I felt it that hollow drop in my chest, the one that only comes when you realize you’ve crossed a line you can’t uncross. She was quiet after. Not loud-angry. Not dramatic. Just distant. And distance hurts more than yelling ever could. I wish I could take it back. I wish I could rewind to the second before I opened my mouth and choose silence instead. Even if I was hurting. Even if I felt pushed aside. Even if I felt like I didn’t matter to her anymore because she talked to everyone else and I started feeling invisible. None of that excuses what I did. She was the only one who believed in me when I didn’t believe in myself. The only one who stayed steady when I was unsure. She supported me even when I questioned whether she cared at all. And I repaid that with a word that cut. Now the pain sits with me, heavy and deserved. Not because I want to suffer, but because guilt is the proof that I cared. That I still care. That I know I messed up something real, something rare. But it reminds me that what we had mattered.
And that losing someone who believed in you hurts more than any joke was ever worth. So another piece of pain was added to my body, but it didn't hurt. What hurt was the words that I said to her.

Answer 1

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Answer 2

oh my gosh....... I'm sorry and I can relate trust me I can, its like all we wanna do is go back to before we said anything at all, but instead we regret the fact we ever opened our mouths at all, I am SO sorry that happened, my pm's are always open if u need to talk or vent just know that I can relate may things get better for u

Answer 3

Very relatable, sometimes when we have a lot to say its just better to keep our mouths shut :sob:

Answer 4

guys move it to pm's plz this is someones vent post

Answer 5

I never said i believed u meant those words, just didn't expect you of all people to say that to me.. i became distant cause i thought u needed space especially after that. You should always realize u always matter to me and that i will always care. Do not. Ever. ASK me of all ppl to hate u. Cause that crap ain't happening. I won't ever stop believing in you, know that James does to. You never lost me, i'll always be here. Pls do not over think something like this again without talking it out with me. I'm scared of losing u, when u said that to me..it took me back to 2 yrs ago..when my ex bsf of 5 yrs said things to me that hurt. I thought u hated me and wanted to leave me aswell like all the other. I'm sorry if i hurt u, ik u didn't mean to say those words to me its okay i'll be fine just don't hurt urself.