Question

(two things i wrote)

what do you want from me.
I give you my time. and yet im here alone
I give you my heart and you gave it back with cracks
I give you every more attention than I did my own self
but yet im here alone. Crying because you left me over some reason i never really understood why. and yet im still here writing things over some dumb little relationship because its the only way i can cope.



why is everyone suddenly fake.
I gave you guys my time. and it turns into time wasted.
I gave you guys all of me and yet im here wondering what is wrong with me.
I gave you guys my trust, and yet my trust issues has gotten worse.
And yet im still in my room crying in the dark corner because im scrolling on instagram seeing everyone having fun with their friends while my pathetic self cant even leave this house with a real friend. with someone who made me feel like Im wanted. You guys left me overthinking why im not enough. Is it because im not giving enough?, am I to ugly?, am I not funny?, am I pathetic person who cant find the right friend because all I do is cry when i'm hurt, hurt myself when i'm bored?, Am I not happy enough?. Are you all leaving because I'm just someone that isnt right for you?. Or am I even someone at all.