It’s 2 a.m. and I’m realizing how much of my life fell apart because my parents chose not to show up when they could have. My dad left and never looked back, my mom checked out in ways that hurt just as much, and I grew up needing things I never got. Now I’m here trying to function like that didn’t shape everything about me, like it didn’t leave me constantly tired, angry, and empty. I feel like I have nothing solid to fall back on because the people who were supposed to be there just weren’t. My boyfriend tries so hard to help me, to understand, to hold me together when I’m falling apart, but he gets caught in the crossfire of my pain and I hate that I hurt the one person who’s actually stayed. Sometimes the weight of all of this makes me want to stop existing for a while not to be dramatic, just to rest from carrying it alone. The only reason I’m still here at 2 a.m. is him, even though I wish he didn’t have to be my reason.

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Addif9911 · Answer

I feel this on such a deep level its scary, i'm here if you need me.

addison123456 · Answer

thnx. this was inspired by todays events.

Addif9911 · Answer

@addison123456 wrote:

thnx. this was inspired by todays events.

if you don't mind me asking...what happened?

adreonnaRaeee · Answer

one thing ive learned is realizing that our parents suffer from their own problems and addictions. some werent ready to have kids but they still did. which is not fair to us, but its not our fault. i get your hurt, angry, tired and empty. but know there are people out there to help you. this isn’t your fault. your parents’ choices and struggles aren’t a reflection of you. it makes sense that you’re hurting, and you don’t have to figure everything out on your own. i know you feel guilty leaning on your boyfriend, but needing support doesn’t make you a burden. it just means you’re human. you’ve had to grow up with so much instability, and anyone in your position would need someone steady. you still deserve care, even when things are messy.

and the best thing you can do it heal which ik is not easy but you have to be willing to do so :) trust me its worth it

addison123456 · Answer

thank you girly it means a lot I really needed to get that out there.

seeker · Answer

Better look for the brighter side …. Why to make yourself feel low when you can overcome all of it

addison123456 · Answer

you are right

xjacob · Answer

@seeker wrote:

Better look for the brighter side …. Why to make yourself feel low when you can overcome all of it

I agree with him better look for the brighter side

addison123456 · Answer

thank you smmm